Transformation

A transformation is a time of change. A thorough or dramatic change in form or appearance to be exact. Transformations are a part of every living (and even nonliving) being. Seeds sprout into a seedling and eventually, a powerful and sturdy tree stands tall. An egg hatches into a featherless baby bird that eventually will spread its wings and fly. Snow melt turns into a tiny babbling brook, into a slow but steady stream, to a roaring river and eventually, the deep blue sea. It is inevitable that a change and transformation will happen, externally and/or internally. Can you pinpoint a time in your life when you’ve gone through a transformation within, not just on the outside? Possibly, you’re going through one now.

 I, personally, have been experiencing a transformation over the past couple of years. I took back control of my mental and physical health by removing toxins within my life and within my body that no longer served me and my being. I soared into my sobriety with excitement and a desire to grow. This alone brought about a huge change in not only my day-to-day activities but within myself. I grew. I stopped running from the things I needed to stand up to and began to really process and work through them all while being in the present moment. I began to really feel the world around me and to really feel my emotions. It brought about a new light that radiated from within. I stopped taking antidepressants and anxiety medication (with guidance from my physician) that I had been on for nearly 8 years of my life and decided to turn my daily medicine into taking care of my health via exercise and nutrition along with being more aware of my mind and its capability to detour reality. I began to practice yoga and meditate. I removed my toxic breast implants last year and have now begun the journey into Ayurveda which lights up my soul via ancient healing techniques that have been around for nearly 5000 years (only recently translated to various languages, including English). I realized that I held the power in my own self to heal from within. I just needed the initial spark to be lit and the desire to know more blossomed.

I transformed from being a person who popped pills and downed bottles of alcohol just to not feel or to really deal with the things I needed to. I once succumbed to the instant gratification and false happiness that alcohol brings instead of looking within, where true happiness resides. Now, I am a being who is on a continuously growing path to consciousness. I am becoming who I am supposed to be. 

Transformation is not easy. It begins with an excitement of change, but eventually, the initial excitement resides, and other things begin to surface that you have to sit with, and process. To really work through the emotions or hard situations that you had been avoiding or possibly didn’t even know you needed to process until they were brought to the surface. I was reminded in my yoga practice this morning, that when we hold a pose that is very uncomfortable for our bodies (for example to the point of shaking and weak legs) we just want to collapse onto the ground or give up and move on to the next pose, that all we really need to do is to breathe into the pose. To breathe and to give in, to feel and accept the pain or discomfort without judgment, and to let it go with our breath. The pose will not last forever even though we feel like it may at that very moment. Yoga is powerful. It is so much more than a physical workout, it is an internal growth support that you can take away from the mat and practice in your life.

I am going through another stage of this transformation in which I am currently experiencing that very discomfort I mentioned above. I’m uncertain what exactly is happening, but there is something changing within me. I keep trying to fight it and to figure it out, but today, I was reminded to accept this time without judgment, to give myself grace, and to breathe into this experience allowing the transformation to happen. Maybe you too are going through something right now. This is a time of change. There is a huge shift happening within our universe and the planets are aligning. This is a time of inevitable growth and transformation. We are learning what it is that our souls need and desire. It is a time to really process and sit within ourselves and listen to what it is we need instead. Listen to your heart and higher self. Speak your truths. Ask for what it is that you need and keep transforming into the beautiful being that you are meant to be.

 Love. Light. & Health. - Renee